monthlyversary (a note to fibrina bian rhapsodia)

a month has passed

and i still have no idea what to write, bai :)

partly because my soul (might be) struggling inside

or i am just turning into some ignorant head

the very first day i arrived,

i promised myself that i wouldn’t follow these people’s manic pace

i decided to maintain my laid-back life,

never ever let myself contaminated by this craziness

then i got lost hundred times

feeling exhausted every time i arrived home

dizziness crept over my head whenever i found the crowds

and i felt eerie watching how people were changed

well, i don’t know how they looked like before,

but for sure they now look unnatural -

the makeover seems to be their biggest failure

the city brings an impression that everything is easy to get

everyone wears the brands, just as casually as

they don’t mind if the rain pours and wets their branded stuffs :)

but inside, i am wondering if they are ‘wealthy’ enough to feel things,

to appreciate what the nature has provided,

to sense that a cry is sometimes needed to heal the soul

so this very second i thank you, my pure-hearted sister

for reminding me to post something here

you won’t believe that i just realized

how writing could help me to survive -

just when this last sentence was typed :)

hong kong, end of july 2010

some 'westerners' i recently met

guy no.1:

he was born in australia, raised in an indonesian family

a second year commerce student, but constantly reading and learning about philosophy

quiet, observant, and inside was all but his own way of thinking

actively participating at church, but has his own perspective of 'belief'

guy no.2:

he is completely aware that he's under the condition called 'slavery'

but he knows what he wants in the future

he's determined that he'll be leaving the country in certain period of time

and he is confident of what he is going to do next

believing in nature, despite the pollution he's surrounded by

prefers to live in a remote island, gets acquainted with the forest and beach and frogs and mosquitos

there are many things i learnt from both.

1. how to classify things in your life: money, passion, interest, love, everything - it's all perfectly well organized. every sacrificed thing worth it.

2. keep your life simply natural. be simple. be humble. machinery won't keep you alive. nature will.

3. ... will figure out how to express them by words :)