pathetic

she used to have insomnia
for she lost her love
and she was afraid that her love would show up
show up in one of her dreams

until last night...
her love really appeared in her dream!

she is now having another insomnia
for she is shaking... terrified...
that tonite the love wouldn't visit her again
even only in one of meaningless dreams...

which one is more pathetic?

laziness

having almost forgotten that i've made a promise, i finally dragged myself to access this website. what can i say, he has approached me smoothly - too smoothly that many times i didn't realize that it was him! and to make it worse, he's one of a few who knows me so well. thus i don't need to be somebody else just to befriend him. well oh well, i got so many excuses to easily fall in love with this dandy guy.

this intimacy to him resulted a huge impact in my life. it is simply because he is related to an extremely wide network. one of his good fellows, for instance, is unhealthiness. they get along way too well and being close with one means you're automatically tied up with both of them.

hey really, i've enjoyed this relationship so far, dude. but life is tough, it's a matter of making a right decision. obviously, though really alluring, you're not opted. don't even bother to kiss good bye. never expect me to drop by and say hi.

...........at least until i get healthy.