di persimpangan ini

sendiri aku menjelajah
penuh gundah, tak kenal arah
lelah aku hampir menyerah
ranting ini pun patah, mengalah

tentang dirimu
bukan tentang dirinya
di persimpangan ku menunggu
di benakku lepas tawamu menyeruak

tak bisa kumelangkah maju
tak adil ini, setidaknya bagimu
namun belum bisa ku mundur
karena tak kuasa hati ini kuatur

biarkan ku disini sementara
perlahan kupejamkan mata
waktu, satu per satu...
angin, bawalah pergi rasa
di suatu saat nanti...
semesta, izinkan dia bahagia

antigravity

If I could choose

I would rather stay here

As I’m never good at saying goodbye

Take my breath in

Deeply concentratin’

Will I find a way to keep them alive

Will I make a way or should I strive

Antigravity

Never’ll it be easy

Set all things free

Til none can I see

Antigravity

Lights dimmed inside me

Laughs, tears, journeys

Immortal in memory

So long eight hundreds sweetest days

To you where I belong

Though never I’m your ace

Antigravity...

Don't take away the memory...

attention

oh you shut your mouth up!
and you, turn your head around!
let me see your face
set your eyes on me

in a second will i start to talk
your readiness is the only thing i ask

if i start to sweat
or even worse, my pants i wet
will you open that big ears of yours
those dumbo's leaves sticking on your head

of course this is not about you
nothing else matters but this young lady

hopeless she has been
yet always greedy

never will she let a breath passing through
without whispering an adoration
though untrue attention
- it's the one she craves for

thirstily will she sip every single chance
she's got the fanciest food she'd ever wished

for the less she obtains
when the most is needed

surrender

at a time like this,
i just wanna cast this fear away
as i've been once stranded
in this deep, unending void

oh how frail a man can be
when control is out of sight
and uncertainty appears like a giant enemy
who widely soars, loudly roars
proclaiming how mighty he is

and i'm trembling inside, Lord
catching my breath, holding the erratic pulse
pulling my conscience
reminding myself how great Thou are

i've been there,
and i've been making failures
letting myself be steered by nerves
turning my head away from Your will

so at a time like this
i would fix my eyes on You
there's nothing else I would do
but close my eyes, surrender this shameful soul
only unto You

a cup of boiled coffee

You know time will heal
But you ain’t patient enough
The moon has gone to sleep
The sun’s shown her mighty grin
But you refuse to open your eyes

The questions that are never answered
The heartache that’s never revealed
The fire that’s still burning
Inside, deep and dark
Like boiled coffee in a mug that remains closed
Noone dares to open it
Noone cares to have a sip

The pleasure of being hurt
You wish you were swallowed by the coldness
You know time will heal
But you ain’t patient enough

butterfly

Beautiful butterfly
Oh she looks so shy
Never she realized that she got everyone’s eye

Oh marvelous butterfly
Used to fly so high
Until she landed here and fell in love

I hope she knows how blessed are
Other creatures when she’s nearby
And on this very special day
We’ll ask…

Butterfly, butterfly, in the sky
Butterfly, butterfly, flying high
The scent you spray
Graceful’s your way
One sweet day
There’ll come your better half…
This is what we pray…
On this very special day….
Our butterfly…


(on vanessa lloyd's 29th birthday)

with You

For when I walk with You
I feel there’s nothing so blue
Be insanely true
Touch my days just like dew

You put that smile back on
This gloomy face

Place the stars in my eyes
All the fear you’ve replaced
With the words so calm….


Nowhere else I would run to
But You