scream

A lady on her thirties, strolling down the hall with anxiety.
She could've done better than that, she knows.
But how could she think clearly if a pair of kids kept on acting wild,
showing off their extraordinary gift to capture one's attention?

The lady felt betrayed.
She had no options but fight for her right,
although in a second her conscious mind questioned,
'Whom does the right belong to?'

Light travels faster than sound, so as rage than logic.
She screamed. Yes, she did.
The so-called 'little devils' won. They earned the scream.
Everyone was shocked.
But noone knew there's someone among them who was even more horrified.

pathetic

she used to have insomnia
for she lost her love
and she was afraid that her love would show up
show up in one of her dreams

until last night...
her love really appeared in her dream!

she is now having another insomnia
for she is shaking... terrified...
that tonite the love wouldn't visit her again
even only in one of meaningless dreams...

which one is more pathetic?

laziness

having almost forgotten that i've made a promise, i finally dragged myself to access this website. what can i say, he has approached me smoothly - too smoothly that many times i didn't realize that it was him! and to make it worse, he's one of a few who knows me so well. thus i don't need to be somebody else just to befriend him. well oh well, i got so many excuses to easily fall in love with this dandy guy.

this intimacy to him resulted a huge impact in my life. it is simply because he is related to an extremely wide network. one of his good fellows, for instance, is unhealthiness. they get along way too well and being close with one means you're automatically tied up with both of them.

hey really, i've enjoyed this relationship so far, dude. but life is tough, it's a matter of making a right decision. obviously, though really alluring, you're not opted. don't even bother to kiss good bye. never expect me to drop by and say hi.

...........at least until i get healthy.

'Love Affair'

I was hopping from a channel to another, without any intention to watch any particular program. Then i left the living room. Another minute when I got back, I sat on the couch and followed the channel my sister had picked. Old movie, I figured out. I like the girl on the movie, her perfect arms and the way she dressed. The setting was in a house, surrounded by valleys. I was starting to enjoy the plot, when suddenly the old lady in the movie played a piano piece... a piece which is very familiar to my ears... it's Love Affair! I cried! ... and continued to awww and ohhhhh here and there :)

For so long have I been longing to watch this movie. I've searched the DVD copy like everywhere (well, I recognized I could find it on amazon.com, but still, I was too stingy to purchase it online and pay for the expensive delivery fee) but found it nowhere. And then... unexpectedly... i got a chance to watch it, although it was not complete from the beginning, but I believe I've captured the best part of it :)

It was so touching that I could stop the tears running down my face at the end of the scene. When I was craving for sushi, for instance, I could run into a sushi place and grab as much as I want. But sometimes things are not granted instantly. It takes a while, even too long that we have forgotten that we ever wish for it. This time i'm not playing cool, saying out loud 'Oh who needs that old movie, anyway?'. Instead, I totally forgot that I wanted to watch this movie badly. I just moved on, trying to be thankful to what life has given to me. But life is fair. And I was given a chance to see the charming Love Affair :)

mulut gatal

badanku panas dingin
segan makan namun takut masuk angin
aku cuma mau ngobrol
begitu pingin hingga tak kuasa dikontrol

tanpa kau memuja-muji
aku pun t'lah terlepas dari jeruji
kalau boleh malam jalan dulu kelar
belum puas aku di sini berkelakar

denganmu aku bak penyelam
sabar dan detil ku belajar menyulam
cinta dari dasar pun terurai
segala elok terlihat dari ngarai

seniman pirang dari negri seberang
izinkan aku duduk sebentar tuk berbincang
aku haus berselayang pandang
aku rindu kembali riang

let's get atonal!

atonal itu mirip diagonal
diagonal itu sama kayak miring
dan miring itu adalah gila
jadi atonal sama dengan gila?

it allows me to get insane for a while
and fly to an outer space i've never been before
it's like a miraculous journey to shoobeedooppaappaaa-land
the further i am enthralled by it, the dizzier my head spins
and there i would take my shoes off and dance
i don't need a key to obey
in fact, why should i if i have thousands colors to mix?
all i need is a freely-ranged pause here and there,
so i can take my time to breathe, feel the sensation, and smile
....
more...
.........
....mooore..
..............
..........
and more......

... until all the tunes blend together...
... and there, i'm wasted. i'm light.

cause and effect

do you have infrasonic ears?
because that's the only tool to listen what i'm saying
because i have no faith that you own such ultrasensitive heart
because i failed to trust you even since the very beginning
not because it happened too sudden,
but simply because i was not brave enough to believe in myself
and why did i become such a coward?
don't ask.

now that everything's too late to listen,
or even too late to say,
i just wanna complicate
perfect.