legawa seperti mega

di suatu hari di sekolah dasar,
diadakanlah latihan evakuasi
sirine dibunyikan tiba-tiba,
dan anak-anak beserta gurunya berbondong-bondong
dari lantai 2 dan 3, turun melalui tangga

lalu mereka berkumpul di lapangan
berpanas-panasan di bawah terik matahari
setelah itu aku pun naik lagi ke ruanganku

di lantai 2 itu, kulihat mbak mega - OB (atau OG) sekolah
sedang asyik mengepel lantai

segera kutegur,
kupertanyakan mengapa ia tak ikut turun
dengan sumringah ia menjawab,
'jodo, rejeki, nyawa ada di tangan Tuhan!'

dan aku pun tertawa spontan,
lega mendengar pesan sponsor di siang bolong
dari sosok luar biasa, si mbak mega :)

tatooed title

people may think i know what i wanna do
or have found what i've searched for
but how is that possible,
when i don't even have the guts to start
because all i know is rocky roads await my steps
and i am standing all alone without troops ready to shoot

but maybe dreams need to be carved
at the very beginning
or tatooed on arm, proclaimed by oneself
and when the desired title is repeatedly said over and over,
the magic spell will reveal its charm
then i will face up, get off my ass,
and there - i embarked on my real journey!
no matter how thorny, or how long it will take,
the spirit is burnt, and the title is no longer a compound of words
it's real. it's me.

daftar kebaikan di hari ini

berangkat agak telat, tapi ternyata tiba sebelum waktunya
terpikir bahwa akan terbebani dengan tugas hari ini,
namun ternyata bebas karena ada acara istimewa

anak kecil jatuh, lengannya tergores, dicucinya,
lalu terasa perih dan menangislah ia tersedu-sedu...
dan luluhlah hatiku ingin langsung memeluknya

teman merayakan hari ulang tahun pernikahan
dan suaminya mengirim kue
dan terlihatlah haru di matanya
dan ikut gembiralah hatiku

lalu anak-anak kecil menyanyikan 'happy anni-versary!'
(dalam nada 'happy birthday to you') sebagai kejutan manis

menyaksikan kebanggaan orang tua
yang melihat prestasi anak-anaknya
membuat lava hijau dalam percobaan

pulang dengan terkantuk-kantuk
namun masih bisa beristirahat di dalam mobil
dengan pendingin udara,
tanpa lelah menginjak kopling karena macet!

duduk kepanasan di pinggir jalan,
namun di depan mata tiba-tiba lewat seorang ayah
dengan kaki di-gips yang dibalut kantong plastik,
mengendarai motor demi mengantarkan anaknya les musik

... daftar belum selesai... karena besok akan kulanjutkan lagi! :)

*terinspirasi oleh mbabinal dan masuwil, on their sweet 4th wedding anniversary... cihuy!!! hihihi

pouring rain

the pouring rain has been a good company recently
tranquilizing my mind then sending me to slumber
in the midst of dad's restlessness

a shadow of fear was implied through his babble
nobody would comprehend the content,
not even himself i presume

and now restlessness is not only his,
but also every single head's who lives under this roof
night means nothing but anxiety

the pouring rain jazzing down the night
cast the heat away, only for a while
covering the noise of progressive slammed doors
and banged stuffs
and knocked spoons
and more more 'hand-made' sounds...

as everyone saying a prayer
hoping this poor big guy will be calming down
i am here lying on my old bed
oh pouring rain,
clear this filthy brain
for it keeps asking, is this what i wished for?

scream

A lady on her thirties, strolling down the hall with anxiety.
She could've done better than that, she knows.
But how could she think clearly if a pair of kids kept on acting wild,
showing off their extraordinary gift to capture one's attention?

The lady felt betrayed.
She had no options but fight for her right,
although in a second her conscious mind questioned,
'Whom does the right belong to?'

Light travels faster than sound, so as rage than logic.
She screamed. Yes, she did.
The so-called 'little devils' won. They earned the scream.
Everyone was shocked.
But noone knew there's someone among them who was even more horrified.

pathetic

she used to have insomnia
for she lost her love
and she was afraid that her love would show up
show up in one of her dreams

until last night...
her love really appeared in her dream!

she is now having another insomnia
for she is shaking... terrified...
that tonite the love wouldn't visit her again
even only in one of meaningless dreams...

which one is more pathetic?

laziness

having almost forgotten that i've made a promise, i finally dragged myself to access this website. what can i say, he has approached me smoothly - too smoothly that many times i didn't realize that it was him! and to make it worse, he's one of a few who knows me so well. thus i don't need to be somebody else just to befriend him. well oh well, i got so many excuses to easily fall in love with this dandy guy.

this intimacy to him resulted a huge impact in my life. it is simply because he is related to an extremely wide network. one of his good fellows, for instance, is unhealthiness. they get along way too well and being close with one means you're automatically tied up with both of them.

hey really, i've enjoyed this relationship so far, dude. but life is tough, it's a matter of making a right decision. obviously, though really alluring, you're not opted. don't even bother to kiss good bye. never expect me to drop by and say hi.

...........at least until i get healthy.