'Love Affair'

I was hopping from a channel to another, without any intention to watch any particular program. Then i left the living room. Another minute when I got back, I sat on the couch and followed the channel my sister had picked. Old movie, I figured out. I like the girl on the movie, her perfect arms and the way she dressed. The setting was in a house, surrounded by valleys. I was starting to enjoy the plot, when suddenly the old lady in the movie played a piano piece... a piece which is very familiar to my ears... it's Love Affair! I cried! ... and continued to awww and ohhhhh here and there :)

For so long have I been longing to watch this movie. I've searched the DVD copy like everywhere (well, I recognized I could find it on amazon.com, but still, I was too stingy to purchase it online and pay for the expensive delivery fee) but found it nowhere. And then... unexpectedly... i got a chance to watch it, although it was not complete from the beginning, but I believe I've captured the best part of it :)

It was so touching that I could stop the tears running down my face at the end of the scene. When I was craving for sushi, for instance, I could run into a sushi place and grab as much as I want. But sometimes things are not granted instantly. It takes a while, even too long that we have forgotten that we ever wish for it. This time i'm not playing cool, saying out loud 'Oh who needs that old movie, anyway?'. Instead, I totally forgot that I wanted to watch this movie badly. I just moved on, trying to be thankful to what life has given to me. But life is fair. And I was given a chance to see the charming Love Affair :)

mulut gatal

badanku panas dingin
segan makan namun takut masuk angin
aku cuma mau ngobrol
begitu pingin hingga tak kuasa dikontrol

tanpa kau memuja-muji
aku pun t'lah terlepas dari jeruji
kalau boleh malam jalan dulu kelar
belum puas aku di sini berkelakar

denganmu aku bak penyelam
sabar dan detil ku belajar menyulam
cinta dari dasar pun terurai
segala elok terlihat dari ngarai

seniman pirang dari negri seberang
izinkan aku duduk sebentar tuk berbincang
aku haus berselayang pandang
aku rindu kembali riang

let's get atonal!

atonal itu mirip diagonal
diagonal itu sama kayak miring
dan miring itu adalah gila
jadi atonal sama dengan gila?

it allows me to get insane for a while
and fly to an outer space i've never been before
it's like a miraculous journey to shoobeedooppaappaaa-land
the further i am enthralled by it, the dizzier my head spins
and there i would take my shoes off and dance
i don't need a key to obey
in fact, why should i if i have thousands colors to mix?
all i need is a freely-ranged pause here and there,
so i can take my time to breathe, feel the sensation, and smile
....
more...
.........
....mooore..
..............
..........
and more......

... until all the tunes blend together...
... and there, i'm wasted. i'm light.

cause and effect

do you have infrasonic ears?
because that's the only tool to listen what i'm saying
because i have no faith that you own such ultrasensitive heart
because i failed to trust you even since the very beginning
not because it happened too sudden,
but simply because i was not brave enough to believe in myself
and why did i become such a coward?
don't ask.

now that everything's too late to listen,
or even too late to say,
i just wanna complicate
perfect.

too fast

it's too fast. way too fast..
just met them a couple of weeks ago
it's always a thrill to be around new people, especially those who'll share similar path of life
super fresh graduate
rockstar used-to-be
restaurant owner plan-to-be
what-so-called executive
sports genius
physician
financial consultant
movie talent
musicians at heart
and many more professions that i could list down just to assure you that they're all worth mentioning
presenting original characters which can make you wanna stay with them although you're suffering from a terrible monthly stomachache
separatedly will we sail our new boats, from the very beginning of the beach
and as always, anything goes with the beach is painfully sweet
yet here we are, enjoying the sunset which is soon swallowed by the darkness

it's too fast. way way too fast.
i still wanna be here.
laying on the long bench, reading stuffs i'm badly curious about
playing beach volleyball though i don't even have the skill to pass the ball
singing out good old songs accompanied with a humble guitar and domestic hand-made percussions
dancing and shaking my flat ass, as if il were swung by the wind
laughing out hard that i almost forgot you're still chasing us

as i'm strolling down the white sandy beach
listening to the sacred waves for the last time
for a minute i gaze at the conceited boats
then close my eyes as whispering it to you,
it's too fast.... way too fast.

tipsy cupid

may is nearly over
and the waiting seems forever

as a trade, i vowed myself to this brat
what can i say, the answer's still 'not yet'

dress up like a señorita
with one hand raising margarita
as my tiny mouth cheering 'salud!'
merrily i'm facing womanhood!

though doubts many times slipped in
i'd just know when i got the feelin'

cupid is many times reckless
shooting arrow at the same time being senseless

as i beg and beg, blank eyes staring at the tarot
oh tipsy cupid, when will you give me a shot...

a drop of water

a drop of water on a flower petal
ready to fall, completely surrender
wherever it may go, the nature would widely open its arms
landing on the ground,
blown by the wind,
flown into the river,
any place would be a kingdom

the day when the drop of water gave in,
was the most special day... ever.