typhonic

(sigh...)
here i am stranded
not 'cos i'm blinded
by the misfortunes in my life

(sigh...)
can't i see clearly
foggy yet twisted
ready to escape but i'm stranded

here
i'm stuck in the well
grounded, inconsolable
finding your loved ones don't really love
one another anymore

this time it's not just a gloomy me
another role has to be played
and the game of life needs to be rolled

i know i should

spitting my feelings out
i know i should
letting you know how much joy
you've brought into my life

it was safely kept
locked like i would never regret
should i shout it loud
and give it a shot,
then i might not be this drowned

some people say good bye with tears
some others lightly wave their hands
but the last thing you did
was sitting me down
listening i was there
to a song - charming as a poem

i could barely smile
all the memories started to tease
the tears streamed down this face
and i closed my eyes
here inside torn apart

to send my very blessing
being true though so blue
to be happy for you
i know.... i should

[wish not] a gift

have you ever felt
that you have a gift
but you wish that it was not a gift
or at least not merely was
?

aku pulang

malam itu begitu istimewa
umbul-umbul dan bendera berkibar lantang
bajaj berbaris rapi bak pagar bagus menyambut tamu
angin hangat berdesir ringan
bulan berpijar terang,
dan aku pun tersenyum lebar
seraya menghela napas panjang...
aku pulang.

kala sosok wanita kuat itu penat
coba kutahan diriku terjaga
menemani sang lelaki tua kesayangan
... setidaknya hanya itu yang bisa kubuat
sosok raja yang sekarang kembali muda
karena bebannya tak lagi terasa

kala malam lelah dan enggan sudah bercanda
beduk ditabuh dan segenap insan bersama
berkumandang menyorakkan panggilan ibadah
hentakannya menyalak, hingga jangan ada yang terlewat

duhai ibukota
duhai kampungku tercinta
kau tetap luar biasa!